Life was about to begin for me when on a TWA jet I poked tentatively at the soft walls of the tight round room of my mother’s womb. And after quick-passing days she deu à luz (gave the light) to me. Fifty years later life ended. Books describe divorce as a kind of death, for its permanence and its depth of loss and grief, and perhaps Continue reading
Whence Come these Lullabies
I once composed lullabies.
I suppose they began when my three-month-old baby, my first child, spiked a 103◦ fever, and I was frightened and he was sick and miserable and frightened. And I cradled him and rocked him for hours in my aching arms gently and rhythmically as I breathed and whispered unconnected assuring words that began to connect and to coalesce with the rocking rhythm and began to hiss forth with sympathy and hope and desperation: Continue reading
Merlins and Holy Ground
Dark Trail earned its name for the tree canopy that shades and darkens its travelers. Gambel oaks. Mountain maples. Box Elders. Orange lichen clothes their trunks as they arc over the path. I ride a round-trip seven. The higher I go, the prettier the canyon, campsites yielding to firs and aspen groves and snow pockets still in June. On Independence Day I launched from a mogul Continue reading
These rusting tracks still rumble with the rolling weight of history, of capitalism’s commerce, of hobos leaving home leaving family to find money because they had none and would find none neither though hunger compelled them to try, of kine and swine heading to the slaughterhouses to spill their blood and feed a nation, of starry-eyed boys and beaten-down men who knew there was a better life out there somewhere, at the wherever end of the tracks. With an ear to the cold steel, I can hear the scrape of the coal shovel Continue reading
Cries of “Marco” and “Polo” skip across the surface of the years and I am right back there in my neighbor’s pool swimming for my existence. He didn’t mind being IT, squeezing his eyes and shouting “Marco” and charging at the splashing sounds of “Polo” we made. The game was fun, somewhat, and frightening, somewhat, especially when he was IT and I knew I’d get caught and dunked if not drowned. “Sharks and Minnows” is the same game but this title more truthfully connotes the terror of being a minnow when he was the shark. Putting fun and anxiety on the scale, I’m afraid anxiety won most times, weighing more heavily on my mind, making the game one I avoided, and when avoidance was socially impossible, sometimes hiding in the corner and whispering “polo.” I liked being Marco not much better, fearing that the moment I closed my eyes the only thing I would catch was the concrete wall with my teeth, which happily never happened. I do not play “Marco Polo” with my children. I much prefer swimming with my eyes open and being neither a shark nor a minnow, but rather a friendly popular whale. We play “Barnacle” where the little ones cling to my whaleness and I try to throw them off. Or “Launch” where I throw the children high over my head (having studied our distance from the concrete wall). When my children grew too old and heavy for me to throw, their younger cousins took their turn, clinging to their old bald waterlogged uncle with shouts and giggles that skip across the surface of the years, and my brother is two again, two to my eighteen, two to my leaving for a university two thousand miles away, before emails, before cell phones, before computers, and how is it even possible to know someone, a family member, your only brother, when he is only two when you’ve grown up and gone.
Now I am 56 and he is 40, my children are mostly grown and gone, and his are still young and joyfully exuberant, and one day he sends me an invitation to join Marco Polo, a video sharing app, and I do, and he starts sending me video messages and I start sending him video messages and soon we are “talking” every week, after a dearth of decades, giving updates about work and children and holidays and moves and home decor and books and thoughts about books and scripture and history and God—the conversation always comes back to God, who is there in our lives, from the beginning of our births to common parents, through our sponging-up childhood and our sluffing-off piecing-together adolescence and our first stumbling attempts at adulthood when stupidity counts but you can still course correct, to our first bumbling efforts at marriage when course correction is more important and more difficult and when the stakes are so dazzlingly high. I ask him, how can this be that we are talking when I left when you were two and you are now forty and we are talking, we are expressing our hesitant thoughts that normally ramble around only in our own brains, hoping that we each understand the other and appreciate the other’s thoughts and respects the other even and is overjoyed to be an unexpected source of intellectual stimulation—that is what I ask him. And he starts by pointing out, we never really know someone, we never really have access to them, really; we can live with someone for many years and they will say something that astonishes us or they will misunderstand us in a fundamental way; and while we may have access to the same sights and sounds we never really have access to their minds and thoughts; and how our most common and frequent correspondent is ourself, in our mind’s ruminations, and how these self-conversations often can merge for people of faith, can coalesce into prayer, where we have a new thought or we express gratitude or we ask “What’s that all about?” And he says, it makes sense to me, for we were born and raised and spent years and decades in the same house with the same parents who struggled to work and provide and teach and mold and prepare us, and the same siblings we loved and lost and now love again, and we share the same DNA, literally the same double-helixed four-lettered molecules in our cells—the same history, the same biology, the same environment—we are brothers, built on a common foundation, and will share a common bond, forever. I realize how smart and how wise and how right he is, and that thought begins to skip and run and somersault around and to make sense to me, not just the 1+1=2 kind of sense but the meaning of life kind of sense, the kind that seeks to know the human soul, the kind that labors to cultivate goodness and compassion within, the kind that distills into that quantum of existence called Truth. And then we noticed that the thoughts we recorded and sent by Marco Polo are in common to the other’s thoughts, and these thoughts grow and dance and evanesce into shared minds, for an instant or two, now and then, even though we have never spoken about them to each other before. And though we will never really know each other or understand each other, and perhaps not even ourselves, and though we will always be in our own worlds, yet we are brothers, and always will be, and share more than we know, more than we thought likely, or possible.
Roger is a municipal attorney, homebody poet and essayist, and amateur naturalist. Roger is the author of Rabbit Lane: Memoir of a Country Road and A Time and A Season. Rabbit Lane tells the true life story of an obscure farm road and its power to transform the human spirit. A Time and A Season gathers Roger’s poems from 2015-2020, together with the stories of their births. The books are available in print and for Kindle at Amazon. See Rabbit Lane reviewed in Words and Pictures.
Mr. Whitlock’s Physics Class
New Jersey. East Brunswick. High school physics class, with Mr. Whitlock. (Mr. Whitlock was the band teacher, not the physics teacher, but they were both 50ish and ancient and pudgy (like I am now), and they were both nice to me, and I can’t remember my physics teacher’s name, though I wish I could because he liked physics and he liked us. But I cannot recall his name, and his picture is not in my high school yearbooks: he must repeatedly have dodged faculty picture day. So I will just call him Mr. Whitlock for now.) I was a high school senior proudly registered for physics class. The olive chalk board was full of Mr. Whitlock’s arrows on arcs and sine-cosine frequencies and equations with X and Y and Z and other wondrous letters and symbols with hidden meanings. I was enthralled. While the class title was merely Physics, to me the exciting subtitle was Relativity, Cosmology, Forces, Theories of Everything, and other Cool Space Science Stuff. A willing sponge, I was eager to soak it all in. That same year Cosmos erupted into my existence, by Carl Sagan, the famous astronomer and cosmologist with the deep nasal “billions and billions.” I believed everything he said because it was the science and the truth of the universe. That is what physics class was all about, right? But while I adored and worshiped the ideas, I choked on the math—why is it always the math?—and I tripped over the translations of the pretty arrow-arcs into unintelligible long lettered mathematical formulae. And I came quickly to understand that I did not understand and might never understand the mathematics of physics, despite the fact that I received an “A” in Trigonometry class the year before because I had memorized the equations and aced the tests and then forgot everything, the day after finals, because I had never understood the mystifying logical language of mathematics.
The inexorable dreadful day came when I carried home my report card, folded neatly in a 6×9 manila envelope, and we formed a line at the dinner table where Dad sat at the head before dinner, and we handed him our report cards, one at a time, me the oldest and me the last, and oh how slowly he opened the envelope and drew out my first-quarter report card and unfolded it and slowly and dreadfully scanned the straight As, with the C at the bottom, my first C in history, the C in physics, my favorite and impossible class, and he looked up and said simply, “Is this going to continue?” But as I stood sickened and sweating, my insecure scared self supplied this translation: This is the best you can do? I thought you were smarter than that. I expect more of you. A C, not being an A, might as well be an F. F-F-F. Failure. You had better do better, son. Dad meant none of that, of course, though he was and is the best smartest strongest man I knew and know, though his question simply revealed his own exhausted mind as lawyer clergyman handyman father-of-six, though my report card C was simply a small temporary bare blip of a fact, a diminutive letter written in a tiny box in a narrow column of my life, and meant nothing at all whatsoever about me and my value and worth and intelligence and my sense of wonder for the scientific world. Dad’s question was simply a worry for his son and a hope for his son and an offer to help his son if he could. I see that.
Please do not ask me why I majored in physics in college. Please don’t. Though if you do I will answer simply that I love cosmology and relativity and theories of everything and other cool sciencey spacey stuff. I just could not do the math.
(Painting “Galaxy” by Roger, though I’m hesitant to claim it.)
Roger Evans Baker is a municipal attorney, homebody poet and essayist, and amateur naturalist. Roger is the author of Rabbit Lane: Memoir of a Country Road and A Time and A Season. Rabbit Lane tells the true life story of an obscure farm road and its power to transform the human spirit. A Time and A Season gathers Roger’s poems from 2015-2020, together with the stories of their births. The books are available in print and for Kindle at Amazon. See Rabbit Lane reviewed in Words and Pictures.
Old Man Walking
We drove to the park. So did he. Or perhaps someone drove him—that is more likely, perhaps. We drove to the Loops at Lovers Lane Park. Three of us, the youngest and fittest, were there to walk and jog the loose lime-finds path. Me, the oldest and least fit and least interested in being fit, was there to walk slowly, so I could see the sassafras leaves and the parasitic threads of poison ivy vines sucking on the sassafras and maple and beech and tulip polar trunks. I wished it were spring so I could gaze upward Continue reading
Curtains and Veils
Only a cloth curtain separated the little boy’s anticipation of surgery from my own. But he was only two and didn’t know what was coming and had two kind parents who spoke in cheerful optimistic soft voices and kind nurses and kind doctors who smiled and were soft and kind.
I am always very careful to say nothing when awaking Continue reading
I have seven children: 7. They are mine. Or rather, they are my progeny. I do not possess them or control them, and would not if I could. I have 7 children, and they have me, for better or for worse, for they cannot ever claim another father or even another dad. I am what they got and what they get. And mostly they are okay with that. My 7 children each possess a great soul. They care about this world and its life and beauty and stories and its living creatures all. They care about the human family and its poverty and illiteracy and violence and illness and squalor. They study hard and they work hard. They are kind and generous and patient, and long-suffering. They are fun and funny and adventurous and smart. They call me Pops and Papa and Pappy and Dadda and sometimes even Father. Continue reading
A Tree to Remember
At the time, I felt proud and childlike and utterly cheerful to plug in the new two-foot-tall artificial Christmas tree with multi-colored lights pre-strung—just slide it out of the box and plug it in—and skirted with a checkered flannel pillowcase hiding three plastic feet. I hung fragile little ornaments I keep in an egg carton. This lighted loaded twig brightened my living room, a quiet understated new friend demanding nothing of me, content to glow and keep me company. Continue reading
That was the morning I awoke late and feeling groggy and foggy and depressed and sluggish, as in, like a slug. And I had been feeling so well. I will never take melatonin again at one o’clock in the morning, or for that matter at any other time of the day or night again ever. Which I also said the last time this happened. The tablets I have flung in the trash, and the bottle tossed into the recycling box for the next time I visit my parents, who have a giant green plastic recycling can the city empties Monday mornings. Saturday is a good day to do the laundry, I shrugged,
My Christmas gift to family and friends this year is this book of poems, A Time and A Season. The poems span the last five years of my life’s journey, but reach back over forty years of emotional memory. Each poem is introduced by the story of its birth. Poetry allows me to explore and express the intimate in a unique word art. I consider these poems gifts from a larger Source to me. Not dictated, however, they required pleasant effort, as do all meaningful gifts. Sharing these poems with you gives me hope and joy.
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Roger Evans Baker is a municipal attorney, homebody poet and essayist, and amateur naturalist. Roger is the author of Rabbit Lane: Memoir of a Country Road and A Time and A Season. Rabbit Lane tells the true life story of an obscure farm road and its power to transform the human spirit. A Time and A Season compiles Roger’s poems from 2015-2020, together with the stories of their births. The books are available in print and for Kindle at Amazon. See Rabbit Lane reviewed in Words and Pictures.
Cards of Leaves and Petals
I buy birthday cards at the dollar store: 6 for a dollar. If I’m lucky I find pack of 8 for one dollar. And I buy about ten packs which will last maybe a year. The cards don’t have HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! or anything else printed on them. Which doesn’t bother me because I can write HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! just well, or even better because I am practicing my handwriting. I have got the cursive G down and the S as well, but H has me harrumphing. The fronts of the cards Continue reading
Amy helped decorate the family Christmas tree: with lights, ornaments, and…a lizard. Sunshine’s pretty color fits right in. Sunshine is such a good friend to Amy, and Amy to sunshine. Everyone needs good, loyal, supportive friends. As 2020 winds down, we can find someone to be a friend to, someone who needs our friendship, our kindness, even our love. We can do it. We should do it. Try.
Prayers of the Weak and Powerful
Our Father who art in heaven. Since I was about 12 years old, or maybe nine, or four, my prayer preamble has been “Dear Heavenly Father….” But I may in my lifetime have spent more time wondering about prayer than praying, though I am beginning to wonder if there is much of a difference. Mostly I ask whisperingly What is going on here? or sometimes utter an exasperated What in Heaven’s name is going on here? or on occasion send a belching What the hell is this? I kneel bed-side or sofa-side, like I am supposed to, though periodically on only one knee because it is more comfortable and because sometimes kneeling on both knees just takes too much out of me and I just cannot do it, and I bow my head, like I am supposed to, to show respect for deity and all that. And I say, Dear Heavenly Father . . . What is this all about? Continue reading
Jam and English Muffins
English muffin halves, toasted crisp, with butter and blackberry jam. When I wake up irrevocably at one-something o’clock in the morning, bladder bursting, feet tingling, back twisting, stomach chafing for food. I just know. I know that to wind back down I have first to wind up. The perfume of burnt bread wafts soothingly and intoxicatingly from the toaster. In sleepy waiting reverie, the harsh click of the popping-up startles. First the butter—used because it tastes richly divine, and why eat at all unless the food pleases?—then the blackberry jam—not too much—or maybe strawberry—I like to alternate. One smallish crispy bite of muffin. One sip of cold whole milk. Slowly. Savoring. One lamp lit to illuminate the book, and the fleece covering bare cold feet and other bare skin and undergarments. A bite and a swallow. Mmmm. Since I’m up anyway, awake and comfortable, enjoying a muffin for two minutes, I might as well read. Brian Doyle’s enchanting, funny, touching essays are right for this quiet moment and are just short enough and just long enough to finish with the last bite and sip. I read about hummingbird hearts the size of pencil erasers, and blue whale heart chambers the size of a room a man could walk through. I read of heart surgeries and the fear of loss and the pain of loss and the reconciliation to loss. I read of love and beauty and whimsey and the mystery of a loving soul. I read of how parents learn to live for their children, to see in their children the heights of heaven and the depths of anguished concern and the desperation of loss and the ephemeral and the letting go of what cannot ever be possessed or controlled. Or I read from the Bible: about Paul telling the Romans and Ephesians and Philippians and Colossians and Hebrews about that man Jesus, full of grace, the very Son God of the Father God, full of grace, full of truth and light. Or I read in the Book of Mormon about whole civilizations who turn from the God they know, turn intentionally away from him and his simple system for personal and societal peace and happiness—why would you reject what you know and love, all the truth and peace and light and joy, only to exterminate each other in a tempest of rage and blood and hate?—or the account of Jesus coming to them, descending, beaming his glory, radiating his light, his scarred palms outstretched for them all to feel and to witness forever, this Jesus come to teach and to correct, come to comfort and to heal, come to establish his order on earth. Finished with the food, and the word, I snuggle into the fleece and the couch and work to think big divine universal thoughts, but all I can achieve is to almost understand something bigger than this big small world, all I can manage is to almost feel by mental reaching touch the grand blinding serene Mind hanging out behind the veil of the infinite universe, that Creator, and the elegant laws of the cosmos and the evolutionary laws of life and DNA and of the amazing simple brilliant law of love, love one cannot measure on a scale, love one cannot reduce to an equation, love that is the greatest force in the universe for hope and for reformation and for redemption, love that allows forgiveness and invites a stretching reaching higher farther vaster than we thought possible… Sweet respite, this, these tangible almosts… Knowing I cannot ascend, yet, to where I wish, yet calmed and satisfied and inspired and touched, and fully awake, I know I can descend again now into sleep, and stay asleep until morning, though I do have to brush my teeth first.
Amy is a great swimmer, a veritable dolphin. (When I swim with her, she sticks to me like a friendly octopus!) Amy’s wonderful mom taxis her to and from swim team, where Amy has learned all the standard strokes: crawl, breast stroke, back stroke, and even butterfly. Sunshine is mom’s junior cabbie, perched on her leg, helping her navigate Gilbert’s busy streets. Of course, Amy and Sunshine are always glad to be reunited after swim team.
I cooked for hours. Even though just yesterday I had roasted the annual turkey, yet today I had cooked for hours, for my children, who would arrive at 6 o’clock for dinner with dad. Tó Brandileone crooned in the other room as I kneaded five parts butter to four parts flour, simmered sliced leeks in butter and their own juices for a long time until totally tender, whisked eggs and cream, rolled out the cold dough and baked the shells in 10-inch springform pans—they would be enormous quiches, Continue reading
My son Brian is a professional writer, with a Masters of Fine Arts degree in creative nonfiction. He is also an excellent writer. He introduced me to the essays of Brian Doyle, through the book One Long River of Song, essays that touch the heart in a searing unsentimental way, that provoke unexpected guffaws, that teach and humor and inspire. I suddenly realized there existed another kind of writing filling the space between the super-condensed sounds of poetry and the loose narrative of memoir: essays that some, including me, call “reflections.” Such reflections are what will inhabit this page, this space in cyberspace. I am still rummaging around for my own style, but these essays reflect no one else but me. They are longer than poems, but shorter than chapters, and move along quickly. I hope they beget hope, that what inspired me will inspire you. Ultimately, I just hope you like them.
Amy is remodeling Sunshine’s apartment. Actually, this is his short-term rental, as it were, where Sunshine sometimes hangs out during the day while Amy does her homework. Comfy quarters. His main house is a large glass tank with a rope hammock and a heat lamp. No crickets jumping around in there–Sunshine ate them all!
In one short cold day the stout gusts denuded my parents’ pear trees. The leaves were so vibrantly colorful, and seemed alive. They swirled in little twisters as Dad and I worked to rake them up before the snow fell. I hated to think of these leaves as just dead things sluffed off in season like flakes of dry skin. So I didn’t. I thought of them as beautiful and alive and holy, like the New Testament lilies and sparrows. And I thought they deserved a poem.
They Neither Sow Nor Reap
south winds whip and tear
at the joyful tree ornaments
all day until they twirl
and scud on the grass,
pile in corners
of color, multitudinous
vibrant reds, some greens
and yellows at the edges,
all painted uniquely
radiant and beautiful,
these trillions of leaves,
beyond sluffed scaly skin, but
the trees’ living breath,
engines of energy,
plucked and fallen
like lily petals
and sparrow feathers,
like the hairs of my head
Like I have told you before, Sunshine and Amy are inseparable.
Having enjoyed a hot bath, it’s time to chill on the couch in a hair-drying towel and read a book together.
Sunshine, not knowing how to read (yet), is content to listen and gaze off into imagination.
I think he is growing long and stout under all Amy’s pampering!
Amy could not, of course, leave Sunshine out of Halloween, so she made him a costume hat. Cute little Sunshine became the dreaded Dragon Witch. Well, with a pink witch’s hat and a pink spider, Sunshine can’t be too scary. Which is good, because Sunshine, although a thorny dragon lizard, is a gentle pleasant little beast. So I think Amy has struck the perfect scary-cute balance, don’t you!
Normally scuttling around on the floor or table top, or warming in his rope hammock, Sunshine seemed to enjoyed the view of the world from the top of Amy’s head. A little perspective makes all the difference. But, hold on, Sunshine!
(Amy’s dog Coconut is pleased to have made her first cameo appearance on this blog.)
Amy and Sunshine like playing Leap Frog (or is it Leap Lizard). And, when they’re tired of jumping over each other, they take a stroll through the house. Sunshine is keeping a sharp eye out for enemies and obstacles. Good dragon.
I was 13 in the summer of 1977. I had failed the 100-yard swim at scout camp the year before. Now I was going for the mile swim. Mist hung heavy on Lake Seneca in the early morning. My dad lowered himself into the water with a cold shudder and swam out into the lake, while Fritz rowed alongside, with me a passenger. Dad swam and swam and swam. Fritz finally said he had swum a mile. We hauled Dad in, and I jumped out of the rowboat for the long swim back. The sidestroke was my savior as I swam slowly back to Camp Liahona. As lake finally gave way to shore and I stood on firm ground, both calves cramped, and I fell to the ground. Two men lifted me up and put my arms around their shoulders, congratulating me on my accomplishment. I was proud to sew our seahorse patches on my merit badge sash. We had done it. What’s more, we had accidentally swum two miles each, Fritz having rowed us to the wrong landmark! But we were proud and happy to have done it, and to have done it together.
We Swam the Mile Swim
You know that
patch on the back
of my old olive sash:
white with red
seahorse? I worked
for that patch: I swam
2 miles for 1 patch
for the 1-mile swim
because the rower pulled to
the wrong landmark. Of course
I didn’t know
until the long swim ended
and two men shouldered
my dead arms after
both calves imploded
and the mile-swim boss
did you swim so
far? I knew all
along I could do it
no matter how far
because my dad had swum
out to that far landmark
and I had only to
back while he watched
over the gunwale
on Lake Seneca: still
steaming morning’s mist.
Do you ever feel dried out and empty, with no zest for life? I know I do. I am thinking that feeling is a common human experience. The happy parts of life are there but seem just out of reach. The heat of guilt and the sun of duty sap our strength, along with many other troublesome things. But I also believe that if we work for it and wait for it, relief comes to us, in the form of a smile, a kind word, a personal achievement, and many other ennobling things. In this poem I used a dried-out lake bed as a metaphor for the hard times in life, trusting that hope hangs just around the bend of tomorrow.
Lily Pond in Summer Drouth
The lily pond has
completely dried out, birds
have picked the flesh off white-boned fish, old
slimy greenery mats into dark
paper that flakes and flies
away like cindered news:
the sun has sucked all moisture from the muck:
the bowled bed lies cracked and ravined
in a million baked-mud islands:
the definition of a desiccation:
red sliders scooting off their sun-logs, fiery
newts crawling with wet leafy fragility,
butter-cream lilies crowning: lotuses
bursting with wisdom and beauty . . .
but the spring will not flow:
the pond has dried and died:
and there is nothing for it
but to settle in
until tomorrow’s heaviness sheds
Roger is the author of Rabbit Lane: Memoir of a Country Road. The book tells the true life story of an obscure farm road and its power to transform the human heart. The book is available in print and for Kindle at Amazon. See Rabbit Lane reviewed in Words and Pictures.
Whereas Sunshine may be Amy’s art instructor (see Bearded Dragon Mermaids), Amy is Sunshine’s piano teacher. They make a good pair, don’t you think?!
Knowing the beaver come out in the evening, I launched from Porter’s Landing at 7:00 p.m. and sprinted three miles upstream, then turn and paddled slowly and quietly with the current, looking for beaver. I saw 7 beaver, 3 great blue heron, 2 black-capped night heron, and a belted kingfisher: all miraculous. I arrived at the launch just as the dark settled in. By the time I hauled out, this poem had composed itself and was gently asking to be written.
On the Jordan at Dusk
settle into the rhythm…
dip and pull…
dip and pull…
on the keel…
splashes indigo and rust
on white canvas…
Great Blue Heron
flies low and wide toward me,
and I wonder if I resemble a fish…
pink petals and perfume
droop transfigured into ripe
red rose hips…
evening’s green aromas
drift over the water,
warm and pungent…
silent beaver swim
in the shadows of a gibbous moon,
Walking along Idaho’s Salmon River shore at sunset during a 52-mile float, I began to notice the ridges of tiny underwater dunes. I thought about how inconsequential the weak waves were, yet how they shaped the dunes. I thought about how the little things in life may seem inconsequential, but always have important formational significance.
lap the river bank:
a sandy river bank:
in the shallows
long ridges run
along the shore—
not straight, but undulating,
now breaking off
ridgelines a centimeter high:
and each incoming
and each outgoing
adds to the tiny dunes,
reshapes . . .
Even a lizard enjoys a little spa time, and Amy sees that Sunshine does not go without. Being a creature of the Australian Outback desert, a warm bath is in order, followed by time lounging under the sun lamp. Isn’t his color gorgeous? All I can say is, if I were a bearded dragon, I would want Amy to be my human.
I have attended some great concerts in my many years: Journey: Billy Joel; Boston; John Taylor. But the best concert I ever attended was a free community Concert in the Park in New Brunswick, New Jersey, in the summer 1981. The band was Fiddle Fever, and I was 17. From the first note, I was completely captivated. Their Appalachian bluegrass music was earthy and mystical, happy and tender, evoking generations and adventures past and yet to come, and expertly performed. The players radiated enthusiasm and utter joy that washed over and through me. We bought the vinyl and listened to it hundreds of times until it was too scratched to play. To my delight, I recently found a CD of the original LP, with several bonus tracks. Thirty-nine years later, I am playing Fiddle Fever again. I am captivated still.
Forty years ago my parents loaded the station wagon and drove the family from our New Jersey home to the woods of Maine for a modest vacation. We stayed at Gray’s Cabins, which had no central heat (but a fireplace) or running water, but an abundance of gorgeous views and rustic nostalgia. At a small bait shop on a winding country road, while Dad bought lures and earthworms, I stood on the porch admiring a mobile of flattened silver spoons suspended from bent and curled fork tines. The spoons met each other, as the breeze passed through, with surprisingly rich peals, as from a bell. For two decades I haunted thrift stores for discarded silver-plate, and made dozens of chimes for family and friends. I recently pulled out of a box the scattered spoons and fork of my last remaining set of chimes, polished the silver, restrung the spoons, and hung the chimes in my patio, where they tinkle and take me back to the green woods of Maine.
If plated silver is not available, you can make your own set with any inexpensive metal ware. Tools you will need:
- rag to buffer the spoons from the hammer and concrete surface as you carefully flatten them
- power drill with very small drill bit
- block of wood under the ware as you drill
- needle-nose pliers
- fishing line or stout threat (thick string will muffle the spoon vibrations and dampen their sound)
- nail or hook to hang from
The colder your metal ware, the higher the likelihood the spoons will crack and the tines will break off. Work with the spoons and fork after leaving them in the sun for a few minutes.
Sunshine began his life of friendship with Amy just seven months ago as a tiny young lizard. Now he is in full adolescence, and still calm, patient, and pleasant. Amy thought a portrait of her friend was in order. Here is her first “peek-a-boo” angle.
And now, Sunshine’s full-color portrait, drawn expertly by Amy. In Portuguese one would say, “Tal e qual,” meaning “Exactly so.” Great work, Amy!
Amy and Sunshine decided to go into the delivery business, called “Delivery Squad.” Watch out UPS! Amy did all the initial heavy lifting by building the business headquarters. And she designed and fabricated a specialty delivery van, backpack, and cap to fit her Bearded Lizard partner. Perhaps unfortunately, Sunshine can deliver packages only from one side of the dining table to the other. But the service is personal!
Ready for business!