The ink has drained from my Lincoln rollerball, and I lack the means to refill. But the sun never stops its monotonous movement morning till night.  I asked Mom if that day were a good day for me to do laundry, and she exclaimed, “Yes! You can do laundry forever and ever!”  So I began.  The next day I came home from work to find them in Dad’s office, organizing his papers, a team effort, their combined age pushing 175 years, Dad instructing Mom from his coastered office chair: File this. Shred this. Throw this away. Shred this, and this.  File these. No, throw those away—away!  They both beamed their pride at their tidiness.  This week brought hard conversations about fading finances and funerals and planning for the end of life, and after.  They have always managed to afford their generosity, until now, when their spirit of giving exceeds their means to give.  To my great calming relief, they were open, accepting, and grateful for my “thinking logically about things.”  After all, they are one illness or fall away from assisted living and selling the house to pay.  They proposed, and I agreed, that the only practical solution is for them to die in their own home.  Dad has three abscessed teeth, poor guy, to be extracted soon, poor guy.  But he felt inspired as I cast to their sagging television the national steeplechase championships where the BYU runner fell on a hurdle and rolled and rolled and jumped up to rejoin the group and win the race, and he felt happy to see all the dozens of photos I took on my mountain camping trip with Hannah (17) and Brian (33) and Avery and Lila (3 years 11 months) and Owen (10 months) and their smiles and explorations and crawlings in the dirt and splashings in the river pool and paddlings in the kayak on the high mountain lake and their roastings and burnings of marshmallows over the hot cedar fire, and the ripe thimbleberries.  He still says, “I love life.”

Above: about to kayak on Moosehorn Lake, Mirror Lake Highway, Uinta mountains.

Below: peek-a-boo with baby; thimbleberry bushes with ripe sweet berries; the Provo River next campsite #18 at Cobblerest; view of the Uinta mountains from Bald Mountain pass, with two of the hundreds of lakes.